I have always said it in my head but NOW I am saying it out loud! I can not change the past, even though if I could I would want my son back in a heartbeat!! But other then that my past has made me who I am and I am finally starting to love my self again. To know that Isaac had a GREAT many proposes to his short life here on earth. But I still have felt that if I would take better care of my self that I would have had a brother or sister for him. I know that I have not laughed (not much) since he went home because it was hard for me to laugh cuz I felt when I did that I was forgetting him. So now my life is so much better more clear.
I have found my better half for sure 4 years ago, we will be married 3 years in just a couple of days. We are so much more in love now then we were when we got married which we (thought) we were then. M has helped me see more of the future to know that we can only strive to do our best. Which is not everyone best but my best!
We have decided to do foster care, of which I know we are to do but I have been kicking and screamming NNNOOO!!!! Because I just have not been strong enough to let them go back to their bio family. BUT I AM!! I know how it feels to have your child taken from you way to soon and out of your control.
I know it is different but you have to think of what the parent's went through when they grew up that made them who they are. So to them they feel like the choices they are making is not their felt or that they are not in control.
So this is now becoming a blog of LIFE what you are given and how you move forward and how you make the best of it. Now now it is not going to be all positive don't get me wrong. I will be venting here but I hope that after the storm our SUN will shine!
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